This morning I was on the treadmill really focusing on working out when one of my hairs started floating around in front of my face. Trying to keep up my pace, I blew hard at the strand of hair and for a minute, I was successful. Moving onto the weights section, I picked up some small weights . . . VERY small weights . . . and the rebellious hair came back. It floated in front of my face like a flag. Perhaps an American flag . . . or a Mexican flag. Regardless, the hair was an annoyance. I went “UGHH ?! How can one hair be so annoying and distract me so much?” And yet, in my life, I live and put up with situations that are waaaay more annoying than a hair floating in front of my face! The problem is that I cannot just blow them away like I do a hair. Sometimes when something so big disrupts my life, I do not even know that I am stressed or why I am struggling so much. I really have to work on my mindfulness and ask myself why I am so upset. It is not an easy thing to do. A lot of times it is painful and sometimes I lie to myself in order to cope with the situation.
My life is very rich. I have a lot of family, my store, my friends. I have people that love me and a few that do not like me . . . I cannot believe it - not liking me?! Lol! But it happens! I have two countries that I care for and I love them just the same. When I watch the news, it stresses me out with so much violence and instability. My family in Mexico, as much as they give me joy, my mother keeps me holding my breath with her health. One day she is fine (or sort of fine) and another day . . . well, it just breaks my heart. When it comes to the business . . . well, what can I tell you? It’s a rollercoaster. Somehow, I am very resilient when it comes to this balancing act that is My Life.
Sometimes I cannot believe that I have lived through situations that would be totally unacceptable with my standards today. I think back to crazy moments, putting up with people, unsafe situations, struggles and I do not know how I got through! How did I cope? How did I allow certain things?! It is not to say that I no longer experience disruptions. I am just much more aware and I deal in a much more conscious way - and I have tools to get out of it. I guess that comes with age, right? Experience comes with age . . . . .
My hair is still floating in front of my face. I just want to yank it out. But I will not do it. Even one hair is precious. It contributes to the rest of my beautiful hair. Certainly, at my age I value every part of my body. Every day is like a single strand of hair - precious and important to the whole part of my being.
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