I was “advised” that for my Just For Kicks, I should talk more about fashion. My immediate response was to be rebellious, the creative part of my brain does NOT work on command! Let’s pretend I did take that recommendation to heart and I tell you about how we are already buying for Spring 2016. I could go on to tell you how awesome it’s looking. But, do I really want to confuse you about texture and future colors and styles? I’m already confused myself! Santa Fe is just starting to feel the true heat of summer and yet in the store we’re already transitioning into Fall shoes! So I decided that I definitely do NOT want to talk about spring 2016!!
I’d much rather tell you all about what’s really going on in my mind. It’s BIG, and it’s OFFICIAL.
My birthday is coming up, and I’m going to officially be 60! AHHHH!! That’s S-I-X-T-Y!! How did this happen? And WHY am I dreading this birthday so much? Simple: Because after 60 comes 70, after 70 comes 80, after 80 comes 90, and after that, it’s GOODBYE from this planet….
This makes me feel like a cat being thrown off the ledge of a high wall and it’s scrambling to stay up. I know you can picture this cat, its hair spiked up, its eyes bulging in desperation, and its claws trying to dig into the wall, trying to not fall!! Do you get the picture? But can you please add to this picture long black hair, bright red lipstick and bangles. That’s more a cat that looks like me.
I feel like I’m running out of time and I’m asking the Universe and God to gift me some more of it. More time! I want more time to “do” less and to enjoy the fruits of my labor more! I finally have the wisdom to enjoy doing nothing. To do nothing and not feel guilty about it is a true talent! Obviously “nothing” doesn’t mean just sitting on my couch and staring into space. In reality, “nothing” means spending an afternoon with my friends, gossiping and drinking wine, eating cheese, laughing. It means being able to take a day off and do something different for the day, something that isn’t “productive,” something that is for simple pleasure, and it might even mean I leave my bed unmade in the morning, a few dishes in the sink, without fretting about it.
I want more time! I need more time to relish the love you show me and for you to bask in the love I show you. I could also use some time to discover new loves (people, passions, things). I need more time to spend with my mother, her own window of life is closing. I need more time with my grandchildren, they’re getting older so quickly, but they still hold my hand when we walk together.
I want more time to have NEW experiences, because now I’m actually ready for them! I spent so much time “managing” my life, now I can let go and I know everything will be fine! This is what happens when you become too responsible too early….you realize later in life that you can just have FUN! Thankfully I am finding this out while I am still amble, able, and open. But time is slipping through my fingers. Oh my G-d, I need more time to wear all my beautiful shoes that are in my closet!!!!!
So tell me, if you’re not 60, what do you think about moving into your 60s, and if you’re past 60 give me your wisdom and advice. Write me at me personal e-mail GuadalupeGoler@hotmail.com
PS. I’m going to have a big party for my 60th birthday. Please come and give me a hug, wishing me a FELIZ CUMPLEANOS! Location to be announced… sooooo I will keep you posted via J4K.